The Beggar of St. Paul,
Carol L. Douglas, is a parable based on Watteau’s Pierrot, 1719. A younger Max was the
model for the American dog who eats better than starving Africa.
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While I was in the Bahamas my elderly Jack Russell terrier, Max,
stopped eating and drinking. My husband, who professes to hate this dog, spent many
hours tempting him with various delicacies. Nothing worked.
Jack Russell terriers are very long-lived. Our vet says the
old man is nineteen. Since we got him second-hand, I can’t say for sure, but he’s
slightly younger than our college-sophomore son.
In January, I thought for sure that Max was done for. I
packed him up and took him to the vet to be put down. On the way, I stopped at
the North End Shipyard, where I ran into Sarah Collins and Captain John Foss of
the American Eagle. Neither
had met Max before, but they came out to my car and said a kindly hello and
goodbye to the old thing. When I got to the vet, they announced that Max’s
wound had healed nicely, and he still had a few more miles to go.
That wasn’t the first time he’d fooled me. When he was a
mere lad of 17, I took him in because he was having trouble breathing and was bloated
in the midsection. I was sure he had a tumor. “He’s getting awfully fat,” the
vet said. Oh, the indignities of middle age!
| Max spends most of his working day in my studio. |
But now he seems to be in renal failure. My goal is to let
him slip away naturally, since he isn’t in pain and still seems to enjoy our
company. To that end, I called the vet’s office to ask if they can help me when
the time comes. Early March is no time to dig a hole here in the Northeast.
They warned me that dying at home isn’t all it’s cracked up to be.
Jack Russell terriers are ferocious little beasts. Max has
killed an African Grey Parrot, two cats and innumerable songbirds, which he
could pluck out of the air in his youth. I never left him with small children
until after his teeth fell out.
That ferocity made him an exceptional guard dog. I am used
to traveling alone to paint, and would often bring him with me. Compact, he
would sleep in a tent with me or allow me to stash him in a van overnight while
I couch-surfed. He would stand guard while I worked in isolated places. Nobody ever
walked up to me without him knowing.
The last time I took him along was to Boothbay Harbor last
spring, which is when I realized that his judgment was impaired. “I am not
going in after you,” I told him repeatedly, but he still took outrageous risks
for such an old dog.
| When the model didn't show up at the Art Students League, my daughter Julia and Max volunteered. Kathy Gulrich captured his wriggling in a wonderful chalk drawing. |
On Friday, I made meatballs. I slipped a bit of raw meat to my
ever-present sidekick. I watched sadly as he sniffed it, and then in considerable
surprise as he ate it. Ultimately, he ate four ounces of the stuff.
Since then, he’s been eating small amounts and drinking
chicken broth. I am not fooling myself into thinking that the old geezer is
going to survive much longer, but he always surprises me.
If you’ve ever attended an old person, you know that death
is not predictable. You can’t schedule it. Perhaps our inclination to euthanize
our pets blinds us to that reality. But where there is life, there is hope. Sometimes it takes a frail old dog to remind us of that.
6 comments:
Beautifully written ❤️
Thank you.
Carol..you have a tender heart! And a lucky dog to have you as their caretaker! You deserve a medal of honor for how you've loved on that wee, little old gentleman!!! (That being your dog..not your hubby!) Beautifully written piece! ♡
He just ate some poached haddock. I have decided he is the master of the deathbed scene.
Keep going Max
Keep going Max
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